Bin liners, routines and threesomes!?

Afternoon all, weird title I know, I will get into that real shortly. However, its come to my attention that most dentists are out to kill. I had a dentist shove a sharp small needle-like thing into my gums and expected them not to bleed?! Sorry but if I shoved that into your face I am most certainly sure your nose would bleed. Gawd.

Yesterdays photo of me in my school uniform really reminded me of an awful story back when I was in year seven. I was an absolute loser in year 7, I only just found myself when I got to year 11. That’s when I was accepted by the “cool people” but by then the old cool people didn’t even make it to sixth form (college) and so the “new cool people” were in fact my friends who are smart, witty and fun. Anyway the story was it was about two months into secondary school, I was already having a tough time as I didn’t know who my real friends were, I didn’t really know anyone. So I found I wasn’t being completely me, I was trying to people please in order to have people like me. One Monday morning it was assembly time, we all had to sit on the gym floor (which was uncomfortable and dusty!) There were roughly about 2-300 of of us in my year – quite a lot and so we all had to sit on the floor in rows. Behind me, was sitting a very nervous type girl, who laughed at everything I ever said (bless her) and on this particular day she decided to throw up behind me all over and in my school bag. (For some reason my bag was behind me) If anything she did me a favour because looking back, that bag was hideous, it was bright purple with weird patterns of green and orange and red on it. It was hideous, however I loved it. Only thing was, it was material…so not really easy just to “wash off” as it stained it. Anyway, so I go to pastoral (a place where you went to make complaints, if you felt sick, collect registers, if you were in trouble etc ) and showed them my bag in hope they’d either call my mum up (I didn’t have a mobile phone 😦 ) and get her to bring me a new back, or just send me home. No. They put my sick back into a plastic bag and told me to collect it at the end of the day. “What do I use for a bag for this day?” Bare in mind when you’re in year seven you take a lot of stuff to school with you. I am talking, pencil case, books, folders, calculator, lunch box, drink bottle etc. I had a lot!

THEN what do they hand me? A bin liner. Yes, a black heavy duty bin liner. They passed it to me like santa would to his elves if he had to quickly tie up his shoe or something. How the hell am I meant to wear this?! So I pulled a St Nick and threw it over my shoulder as if I were about to give some kids some presents. Ridiculous. Now, I was already late for Maths so knew this was always going to be embarrassing as the class would turn silent and there would be me (some weird kid with dodgy layers a bin liner and a dusty arse) rolling in late. I knew no one that well in my Maths, so it wasn’t like I had friends to back me up…

What I did was ultra cringey as well. So I knock on the door and I literally walk in saying “Ho ho ho” thinking people would laugh, but no. Blank faces from the teacher and the students was the reception I received.

“Why are you late and why are you carrying a bin liner?!” Retorted my Maths teacher

“Sorry, some girl threw up on my bag so they gave me this as a replacement”

“EWWWWWW” from the whole class

“Right, sit down…”

Awkward.

Anyway. I was reading Cosmopolitan magazine (like a real girly girl I am lol …or not) and I read an article on a woman letting her husband have his fantasy wish …a threesome. Now I am an open minded person and can understand some women would be happy watching her other half  shag (couldn’t even be arsed to think of a kinder word) another woman, whilst laying on the bed watching helplessly hoping to be interacted with at any moment. No. No. No. Not me. I am far too jealous, not the possessive type. I just do not like sharing, especially my man. I couldn’t even imagine me laying there happily letting someone else do the dirty with my boyfriend. Some people may get turned on by it, but i’d be sitting there full of rage wanting to kill them both.

Some of the comments I was reading from men were disgusting. One read, “In order to keep a happy healthy relationship, fulfil your mans needs, he’ll thank you for it in the long run.” How about put your dick back in your pants and be thankful you got one woman willing to have sex with you. Prick. Maybe I am too old fashioned, but even thinking about the other way round, I wouldn’t want to invite a male in. No. I’d feel to bad for my boyfriend and I wouldn’t want some one else. Some men want too much. Threesomes are not the answer. Well, most definitely not me anyway. I would never even consider it. If I am honest, if J turned to me and said he’d like another female, I’d send him packing.

Ugh, just heard the voice of my sister’s boyfriend. Let’s call him twattish, because that is what he is and how he acts. Thats a whole other story for a whole other day.

By the way I have absolutely no disrespect to those of you who have done it or do it on the reg, I just am not as open minded as you are. I think its just a personal thing. I’m gonna drop it on that note.

I am so happy with how my skin has been lately (boring I know) but I am the type to break out really badly and get all kinds of yellow spots and red ones. So I thought i’d change up my whole skin routine. I remember talking to some 60 year old Chinese lady about her skin. She genuinely, no lie, looked 30. She said all she did was exfoliate her skin with a soft brush thing and water and soap. Drunk water all day every day and moisturised. So I thought fuck it, I’ll go out and buy some products to help me do the same.

I will was my face with soap and water and use this brush I bought from the body shop that only cost me £1.99.

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Its soft and my skin feels great after I scrub it gently. Its from the Body Shop, I highly recommend it.

I then moved onto looking at toners, a lady recommended this toner because she said even though its the cheapest, its the best. It does what it says on the tin.

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This also is from the Body Shop. It smells a dream, my skin is soft as anything after I use it, but still, it’s fantastic! Highly recommended. This also costs like three or four quid. Not bad I say. I like it cos it’s a cut the bullshit kind of product, no perfumes or added shit you don’t need.

So then I went to Boots and brought a night cream, something I can put on my face every night before bed, leaving me with that fresh clean sheets kind of feel.

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It’s by L’oreal, it’s a little more expensive like ten – fifteen quid, but I’ve used it before and it works well with my skin type. I love it. I love the luxurious feeling I have after using it. It also smells magnificent.

I also have bought two new cheap products (I usually always buy high priced make up but for once wanted to be different) so, I chose to visit http://www.fragrancedirect.com Its so good! High street stuff for a fraction of the price, no scams, no fakes but the real deal!

I bought….

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This technic highlighter. This is quite good, not as good as the benefit one as it comes off a lot easier. However I would recommend this if on a budget. It makes my cheek bones (that I don’t have) stand out as well as my brow bone. I like it.

I also though i’d buy a sponge foundation brush kind of thing, as I use a soft brush for my face at the moment, I always find it doesn’t rub my foundation in properly. However this does. It goes in all the little places a brush couldn’t.

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Here it is. Yes I am holding the brush rather awkwardly as my nails are atrocious and I am embarrassed. This was quite cheap, it was like two pounds? So considering I pay twenty odd quid for one brush, this is brilliant. (I did once stupidly and naively buy a whole bunch of brushes for five pound thinking it was legit Mac) …It looked like the brushes you’d give to a five year old to paint with pastel paints. Rubbish – what did I expect?

Anyway, I am bored.

I’m off to drink at my local Whetherspoons.

Have a lovely Friday will speak to you tomorrow.

Au Revoir

XOX

Where Can I Sign Up To Be a Kardashian? ugh.

Hey Howdy Hello! How’s it hanging my friends? I re-read my post over and over yesterday, I sound a bit down? That’s because I am. I have a lot on my mind…

How do I even begin?

Now do not get me wrong, I should have nothing to complain about, I am healthy (as far as I am aware), I have all my limbs, I am alive, I have a loving family (bar my sister…that’s a whole other story that one!) I have a dog and I have running water and food etc etc I could go on. However, I’m a hormonal right now and whether it’s the chubby builder talking to me about his “missus” or someone handing me a tissue because I keep sniffing, I am in a bad mood and will stay that way until my head falls onto that pillow.

So, I have been waiting around two weeks for the most lovely lipsticks to arrive – I tell ya you should see them. OH WAIT.

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Now when I showed J (boyfriend) the purple one, lilac moon to be precise, the first thing he said was “OoOooh bit riskaaay” But I love it. I love make-up, I would say I am slowly becoming a make up addict – which is much better than my last addiction. (Wine gums). The products were forty five dollars from Gerrard Cosmetics which works out like £28.59 pence for all five (I didn’t work that out on my own). Now I have never bought from this company before and was a little apprehensive as whether to order from the US as I haven’t before but I love it!

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The photo doesn’t do any justice if I’m being honest, but they’re lovely, creamy and you do not have to keep going over layer after layer for the colour to properly come out! Fantastic.

Anyway enough about my drool over make up I am certainly not an expert, I can barely apply it properly let alone do all the contours people do with their lips today. Christ. Now folks, this is where my title came from, WHY CAN’T I JUST BE A KARDASHIAN, where I can fall asleep and I have someone physically do it for me whilst I nap or munch on some kinder or watch my favourite programmes like Crime Watch ha! Their lives seem so easy, they shop, they work out, they attend events and they eat. Such a contrast to my life. I wake up, I complain to my Mum about either the following: I’m not losing weight (even though really that is self explanatory considering I think “ahh, done three sit ups, SWEETIE TIME” Then begin to devour on all the sugary treats I can get my paws on), I have a new spot on my nose, that I picked the spot on my nose and it’s all red, that the spot that I picked and made red is now impetigo, that Lucy (my sister) awoken me in the morning because she had a fit I wore her jeans the day before even though she’s a strong size four (UK) and I am a ten. BIG difference. Poor Mum. I’d hate to wake up to a me.

I then go downstairs say hello to Rommel, make sure he’s all good, grab my breakfast which usually consists of three rice cakes (low fat caramel ones – must buy!) a weight watchers yoghurt and a banana. I was trying to be healthier but I end up feeling sick after ten minutes of eating it.

My journey to work is literally down the road, but because of the pain in the arse school run Mums who think their little dear needs to be driven at the very front of the school building, means it takes me about 11 minutes. 10 on a good day. They literally indicate the very last moment then mount the curb to make sure their chubby child gets into school the best way they can. I lived far away from school, used to take me an hour to walk! Okay, slightly melodramatic, forty five minutes, but still! I carried a violin, a ruck sack and a P.E. bag!  Oh god let’s not get into me and school….I shudder at the thought of my school photo. I looked like a boy. I am not even joking… I had a horrendous hair cut. I thought I looked the business. You see, layers were in, and I took it to the extreme. My mum cried when she saw me smiling at her with this boy hair cut, she screeched “What have you done!???”

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Yep. That’s the bad boy. Wow. I used to have long hair down to my bottom. Ruined that one. I have a flat face, I legit look like I have been hit in the face with a frying pan.

I then get into work where the two blokes I work with seem to sweat at every moment of the day, so to be a great person to work with, I close the left open front door behind me because to be quite frank ITS FREEZING! I sound like such an arsehole.

I sat at my desk to find a note reading that my parcel couldn’t be delivered because I had to pay a handling fee!? HANDLING FEE? WHAT IS THIS. I paid enough for the lipsticks and I was meant to get FREE postage and packaging. WHAT IS THIS SHIT?! It annoyed me that much I think M and K (blokes I work with) got bored to tears of me going on about how I felt cheated, how LONG I have waited, how annoying it was and how it irritated me.

I need to lighten up.

I’m darkening up! I have been getting a few sun beds here and there (yes I know they’re bad) and I am loving this brown look I got going on, I go with J, however he comes out so so brown and I for some reason have a yellow-y complexion so come out more like a Simpson…Not a Kardashian.

My best friend Pete has finally become a qualified hairdresser woo! Bless his heart, it’s taken him long enough! Fun fact for ya. Pete is my age, we’ve been best friends for like 15 years now and he is my oldest and dearest friend. Although lately we keep having lovers tiffs when we’re drunk. ITS HIS FAULT. I won’t go into dramatic detail like I could and have to J, BUT, every time we go out he is over the top loud and rowdy – thats not the problem. It’s when we go to leave, we both get cash out as a ten minute journey in a taxi in the south costs us over thirty quid somehow!? We finally manage to grab a taxi (we literally charge at it and beg them) then when the man finally arrives at our destination, Pete, decides to either say he’s already paid when he hasn’t or pretends he’s lost it. He’s done it three times now. The first time he did it I was certain he didn’t pay and the taxi man was too (he is probably right as he is in fact sober) and so I pay more…. When we went into our friends house I checked his wallet where he said he had no cash and there was SIXTY FUCKING QUID. That was it me and him bickered away mumbling abuse to one another whilst walking single file up the stairs bashing into the walls and losing footing till we got into bed. The other time he said he’d “lost his money” to then find the next day when we went to Mcdonalds he had loads of cash! The liberty…We bicker like husband and wife. I love him to death but my gosh if we see too much of each other we know and like to wind each other up.

Anyway I am boring myself.

Thanks for reading speak tomorrow.

ITS FRIYAY TOMORROW WOOP WOOP

XOX

Chapter One.

Okay, so, hopefully no one noticed the fact that I wrote two posts before this one. I guess I will call it a practice run. To be honest I just vented about my day, which probably sounded like I was just moaning. Bleugh.

My name is Nicole, I am here to write about my life and day to day happenings. Jesus, I sound like I think I have a lot of self importance. Ha! I know what you’re probably thinking, do we care? Do we want to know? Well…that is for you to decide. I’m gonna cut the intro short as who likes a long boring intro on who I am and what I do blah blah blah. I will let bits of information out in each post. I promise to not bore you all.

So let’s begin.

Good evening folks, it is a lovely evening here in East Sussex (England) and I am currently curled in a ball on the sofa watching my boyfriend’s gaunt expression whilst he plays on GTA five. I will never get the obsession with video games. I much prefer to watch all the crap soaps (big up Eastenders). I say soaps, actually I only watch Eastenders. I guess it makes me feel better about my life. The fact everyone still lives in that square where there has been 100000 murders is beyond me.

Anyway moving on from that, I would say my day has been rather…you know what, fuck it, boring. How can I pretend that whilst I was sitting at my desk trying to figure out why the hell it kept freezing whilst muttering under my breath fuck off every time the phone went off was an imaginative, creative, fun loving day?

I have a dog by the way. His name is Rommel (just stopped, looked to my left and saw that on this game, my boyfriend was tattooing a dick onto a mans chest…what the hell) he is a golden Cocker Spaniel. He is my baby. He is old though 😦 *sighs*. He is partially blind so when I chuck a ball to him, it’s pointless because it’s like chucking a needle into a haystack. Impossible to find. I feel for him, he always seems miserable. To be fair, i’d be miserable if I jumped at every moment I felt a random hand come onto my head, or kept bashing into things, or if every time someone called my name, i’d sprint the opposite direction with my eyes alert and my head up right. Not cool. Here is a picture of my Rommy. (By the way I hate it when people go “oh my boyfriend, ah my boyfriend, oh my boyfriend did this” so I am going to call my boyfriend from now and onwards J.) This was him on Christmas day around five years ago. When he was still a cutie pie. I joke, he still is.

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I feel like I am only writing about him because I feel I owe it to my old pal.

Right, I have nothing to write about today, to be fair, I wrote quite a lot considering.

Good Night

xox